Sad case

been thought we can pulled each others hand's up.
been thought we can share something secret.
been thought we can have some sweet memories.
been thought we can truly treated each other with sincere.
been thought we can enjoyed the moment that we hanging out.
been thought we can have the same thoughts.
Seriously, i been thinking all this once we joined together.
but sadly, I'm the only one who thought all those stupid things.
I'm the one who always talk to myself.
I'm the one who always have different thoughts.
I'm the one who always get cold-shouldered.
I can feel it actually. I'm just pretended.
and it's hurt enough.
The world is so damn cruel. and the people too.
It's so awful.
Seriously, IT IS TRULY REALLY VERY SAD.
The reason is I've never thought I'll be treated like this...

2010's wish.

I'm going to back to college on 1st of Feb. Feel little bit excited.
More and more challenge comes towards me.
Although it'll be very difficult for me yet, i should enjoy every single moment at college.
Can't wait to meet my friends,mates and the lovely lecturer.
The first semester of this course wouldn't that challenge for me.
So, I'm playing around for these 3 months.
The coming up semester, I'll put more and more effort on it and will not fooling around anymore.
I promised myself, i want to get DISTINCTION for all the subject.
I don't want to let my parents disappointed towards me again and again!
I want to prove to them that, i can get GOOD RESULT!
And i hope I'll accomplish the whole course with DISTINCTION =)
This is the only anticipate that i wish to complete.
Thats all for this post. Bye everyone

I MET HIM ...

Past few weeks, i discovered his existence by his facebook.
Since i knew him for couple of months but only i discovered his exist?! =.=
I view his pictures and of course his blog too.
Been add him but failed. He didn't approved me as well.
Wondered why! As my nature, I'll give up!
But today, i met him. I met him at Gurney. What a coincidences.
My heartbeat darn fast. Oh gosh~~
I told my sis : i know his exist but he doesn't know me!
Why I've such feeling? I'm totally no idea!
What my feeling is, wish to know him more, talk to him more and of course play with him more!
......

A lame post

As the title brought down the meaning, this is actually a lame post here.
I wish i could shout out loud my thought and feeling with someone?here?seaside?
nobody could help me and I'm not even purposely go to seaside just to shout?!
so, the choice of me is just to write my feelings at here..
I'm not well-understand myself actually!
I'm not understand what happened on me seriously.
feel that I'm upset with some stuff, and yet i can't figure it out!
maybe is about friendship? or I'm in love with someone?
I'm going to be crazy!

FRIENDS,
maybe that's my character! I'm not well to express my love to you guys.
i feel that I've been neglected by you all. Maybe my self's character is too deep inside?
maybe I'm afraid i am doing something wrong in front of you all!
for example, I'm afraid to tell you guys if that things is not nice or whatever!
i didn't even have the same thought with you guys!
whenever i feel the things nice yet, you guys feel so ugly and not suitable!
i knew it's useless when i gave any suggestion to you guys, so i choose quite.
when I'm quite, you guys feel that I'm no used!
and maybe just because of my this character, i feel that i been neglected by you guys!
i though we were the best friends?
i love to be with you guys when the class ended.
i love when the class ended, we headed to some where else to play or eat.
actually, I'm not going there to eat or what, i just love to be with you guys!
that's why i used to found a lot of excuses not to back to alpine!
at last, although you guys pretend in front of me,
but i feel that I've been neglected ... that's why I'm so emotional this few weeks~ ):

SOMEONE,
I'm been searching you around me for the long time!when are you going out to meet me here?
I'm lack of love, lack of blissful,lack of hug, lack of kiss and the most important
I'M LACK OF CARE !


AND,
i already figured out, where i look so upset nowadays!
that is because of friendship!
i do care what are you guys think about me!
i do care what are you guys did it to me!
i do care you guys meet out without inform me! (although it's none of my business)
i do really care our friendship!!
but why? ... speechless now ...
I've no idea what to describe my feeling now! I'm crying now actually!
BECAUSE I CARE OF YOU GUYS!

that's all i want to shout out here..
i knew it's lame,stupid and no used!
but, no any place to lend me to shout so, accept here T_T
lastly, i love you guys so much friends!

hey readers =)

i knew I'm abandoned my blog for more than 1 months?! sorry ya ;)

my Sem1 was finished and so means I'm holiday now!

this holidays were not giving me much fun or whatever! but just gave me a word B-O-R-E-D!

what a lifestyle I'm having now is BAD!

i was planned to find a job on Dec since i still haven't enjoy my holiday with my parents yet..

still need to shopping and have a great dinner with them at G Hotel.

can't wait for that time coming with dressing a pretty dress =)

*skip skip*

recently my dear brother was facing relationship's problem..

hope that's not a big deal for you dear.

i used to advice him and told whatever he need to do..and the next step are depends on you.

i knew you love her very much, but she has no feeling towards you already.

so, should you give up?!

I've no idea and sick with this kind of problem..

so, i didn't have the right to judge on you! just wish you luck dear xD

and yes!! my Malaysian Studies has passed!! which means I'm not going to touch SEJARAH anymore..wooohooooo~~~!!!!

congratulation to those who passed no matter TAFEA's students or business's =)

and i knew, some of my friends failed=(

some of them going to resit on 5 DEC and someone choose to re-take the whole MS course!

but that's your choice guys..wish you all luck then.
no idea what's going to say the next..so better stop it here then.

bye guys.

xoxo

Finally i'm legally 18 right now=)
very thank you for the wishes form all of my friends!
appreciated it much!
lastly..
wish myself

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YIN ;)

1 more week, I'll be turn to 18th! a bit excited yet nervous! xD
my ex-classmates say want to celebrate with me at 2/10!which means this Friday!
but still not yet plan where to go and invite who!
hope all will be fine=)
what will do while my real birthday day?
will i celebrate with the college's mate? family? or alone?
my mind still blank!='(
scare to be alone due to last year's situation!!
my college's mate called me go DREAM which at Auto-city!
some of them say go clubbing?! since i've turn 18th already what..hahaha^^
should i? or just staying at penang celebrate myself with sis??
my mind still blank too!='(
haizz...hope all will be fine for me xD!