即将要去应酬的他，让我有点不知所措。心中的不安总是会出现。
不懂自己能不能适应他这样的工作。虽然他已经承诺，已经答应，已经保证，但是我相信每个女孩心中还是会有些保留。
真的不懂应该要用什么心情来面对。体谅他？包容他？
但还是会担心。担心会发生事情，担心他会醉，担心种种不可能的事情变成有可能。
不懂这些不安几时才会消失。。。。):
I wish i could be strong enough to face all these problems.
but still.......will worry..
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Yea. I'm here again due to the babyboy! or should say due to the babyman :))) HAHAHA...
Many words of mine are keep inside my deep heart. I wish to tell you, but but but...you already understand me very very well! even well than myself!
But still want to let you know, ILY more than myself. MORE THAN MYSELF.
So, no excuses for you to leave me! I wont accept any of your excuses.
so bie, appreciated each other's love kayy? You know we are difference.
Lastly, Wish we can be the very peace and ordinary couple in this world with lots of joy but not troublesomes =))
Many words of mine are keep inside my deep heart. I wish to tell you, but but but...you already understand me very very well! even well than myself!
But still want to let you know, ILY more than myself. MORE THAN MYSELF.
So, no excuses for you to leave me! I wont accept any of your excuses.
so bie, appreciated each other's love kayy? You know we are difference.
Lastly, Wish we can be the very peace and ordinary couple in this world with lots of joy but not troublesomes =))
Monday, March 22, 2010
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Currently, my life became special.
because there's some special person get involved into my life.
You gave me lots of support.
You gave me lots of advices.
You gave me lots of confidence.
Yea. I'm talking about you TERENCE.
I believe fate. The fate makes us be together again.
I don'tcare who you be with for the previous.
I don't care how old are you and me.
I don't care everything bie.
The only thing i care is, the photo. I'll wait that.
Today you called me, and told me that you got something to let me know.
and asked me not to argue with you after telling me. not to angry you.
not to don't talk with you. That time i was like, huh??
something very important? something about HK's stuff?
something about her again?
LOL. BTW, the words very sweet bie. the sentences that you told me is sweet enough. xD
HAHAHA..finally i've post something about YOU. Happy? :))) ILY.
because there's some special person get involved into my life.
You gave me lots of support.
You gave me lots of advices.
You gave me lots of confidence.
Yea. I'm talking about you TERENCE.
I believe fate. The fate makes us be together again.
I don'tcare who you be with for the previous.
I don't care how old are you and me.
I don't care everything bie.
The only thing i care is, the photo. I'll wait that.
Today you called me, and told me that you got something to let me know.
and asked me not to argue with you after telling me. not to angry you.
not to don't talk with you. That time i was like, huh??
something very important? something about HK's stuff?
something about her again?
LOL. BTW, the words very sweet bie. the sentences that you told me is sweet enough. xD
HAHAHA..finally i've post something about YOU. Happy? :))) ILY.
Monday, March 1, 2010
In love? not to say that yet.
Sometimes, I wish I'm in love. But sometimes,I wish myself free as a bird.
This time, I've no idea.
I wish I'm in love with you. but I'm afraid.
I'm afraid that I've no time to accompany you. That's why i refused.
Because i know, you want me to be your side whenever you need me.
and i know, you want to stick with me always.
That's what I afraid about. I scared that i can't fulfill what you want from me.
And unfortunately, I'm now stayed at island while you stayed at mainland.
Sometime I'll think that, is it much better that we be friend instead of couple?
No any answers appear in my mind yet. That's why we're friend now.
That's why I wanted to be friend with you now. At least I'm not that pressure.
I want to start from zero. From the beginning.
From the normal friend. From the friend that can always hang out, chit chatting, play around and concern each other.
By the way, thanks for contact me back. You know what, your number always let me confused. HAHA.
As i know, you're always around me. :)) Thank you so much.
Sometimes, I wish I'm in love. But sometimes,I wish myself free as a bird.
This time, I've no idea.
I wish I'm in love with you. but I'm afraid.
I'm afraid that I've no time to accompany you. That's why i refused.
Because i know, you want me to be your side whenever you need me.
and i know, you want to stick with me always.
That's what I afraid about. I scared that i can't fulfill what you want from me.
And unfortunately, I'm now stayed at island while you stayed at mainland.
Sometime I'll think that, is it much better that we be friend instead of couple?
No any answers appear in my mind yet. That's why we're friend now.
That's why I wanted to be friend with you now. At least I'm not that pressure.
I want to start from zero. From the beginning.
From the normal friend. From the friend that can always hang out, chit chatting, play around and concern each other.
By the way, thanks for contact me back. You know what, your number always let me confused. HAHA.
As i know, you're always around me. :)) Thank you so much.
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Sad case
been thought we can pulled each others hand's up.
been thought we can share something secret.
been thought we can have some sweet memories.
been thought we can truly treated each other with sincere.
been thought we can enjoyed the moment that we hanging out.
been thought we can have the same thoughts.
Seriously, i been thinking all this once we joined together.
but sadly, I'm the only one who thought all those stupid things.
I'm the one who always talk to myself.
I'm the one who always have different thoughts.
I'm the one who always get cold-shouldered.
I can feel it actually. I'm just pretended.
and it's hurt enough.
The world is so damn cruel. and the people too.
It's so awful.
Seriously, IT IS TRULY REALLY VERY SAD.
The reason is I've never thought I'll be treated like this...
been thought we can share something secret.
been thought we can have some sweet memories.
been thought we can truly treated each other with sincere.
been thought we can enjoyed the moment that we hanging out.
been thought we can have the same thoughts.
Seriously, i been thinking all this once we joined together.
but sadly, I'm the only one who thought all those stupid things.
I'm the one who always talk to myself.
I'm the one who always have different thoughts.
I'm the one who always get cold-shouldered.
I can feel it actually. I'm just pretended.
and it's hurt enough.
The world is so damn cruel. and the people too.
It's so awful.
Seriously, IT IS TRULY REALLY VERY SAD.
The reason is I've never thought I'll be treated like this...
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
2010's wish.
I'm going to back to college on 1st of Feb. Feel little bit excited.
More and more challenge comes towards me.
Although it'll be very difficult for me yet, i should enjoy every single moment at college.
Can't wait to meet my friends,mates and the lovely lecturer.
The first semester of this course wouldn't that challenge for me.
So, I'm playing around for these 3 months.
The coming up semester, I'll put more and more effort on it and will not fooling around anymore.
I promised myself, i want to get DISTINCTION for all the subject.
I don't want to let my parents disappointed towards me again and again!
I want to prove to them that, i can get GOOD RESULT!
And i hope I'll accomplish the whole course with DISTINCTION =)
This is the only anticipate that i wish to complete.
Thats all for this post. Bye everyone
More and more challenge comes towards me.
Although it'll be very difficult for me yet, i should enjoy every single moment at college.
Can't wait to meet my friends,mates and the lovely lecturer.
The first semester of this course wouldn't that challenge for me.
So, I'm playing around for these 3 months.
The coming up semester, I'll put more and more effort on it and will not fooling around anymore.
I promised myself, i want to get DISTINCTION for all the subject.
I don't want to let my parents disappointed towards me again and again!
I want to prove to them that, i can get GOOD RESULT!
And i hope I'll accomplish the whole course with DISTINCTION =)
This is the only anticipate that i wish to complete.
Thats all for this post. Bye everyone
Sunday, December 20, 2009
I MET HIM ...
Past few weeks, i discovered his existence by his facebook.
Since i knew him for couple of months but only i discovered his exist?! =.=
I view his pictures and of course his blog too.
Been add him but failed. He didn't approved me as well.
Wondered why! As my nature, I'll give up!
But today, i met him. I met him at Gurney. What a coincidences.
My heartbeat darn fast. Oh gosh~~
I told my sis : i know his exist but he doesn't know me!
Why I've such feeling? I'm totally no idea!
What my feeling is, wish to know him more, talk to him more and of course play with him more!
......
Since i knew him for couple of months but only i discovered his exist?! =.=
I view his pictures and of course his blog too.
Been add him but failed. He didn't approved me as well.
Wondered why! As my nature, I'll give up!
But today, i met him. I met him at Gurney. What a coincidences.
My heartbeat darn fast. Oh gosh~~
I told my sis : i know his exist but he doesn't know me!
Why I've such feeling? I'm totally no idea!
What my feeling is, wish to know him more, talk to him more and of course play with him more!
......
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
A lame post
As the title brought down the meaning, this is actually a lame post here.
I wish i could shout out loud my thought and feeling with someone?here?seaside?
nobody could help me and I'm not even purposely go to seaside just to shout?!
so, the choice of me is just to write my feelings at here..
I'm not well-understand myself actually!
I'm not understand what happened on me seriously.
feel that I'm upset with some stuff, and yet i can't figure it out!
maybe is about friendship? or I'm in love with someone?
I'm going to be crazy!
FRIENDS,
maybe that's my character! I'm not well to express my love to you guys.
i feel that I've been neglected by you all. Maybe my self's character is too deep inside?
maybe I'm afraid i am doing something wrong in front of you all!
for example, I'm afraid to tell you guys if that things is not nice or whatever!
i didn't even have the same thought with you guys!
whenever i feel the things nice yet, you guys feel so ugly and not suitable!
i knew it's useless when i gave any suggestion to you guys, so i choose quite.
when I'm quite, you guys feel that I'm no used!
and maybe just because of my this character, i feel that i been neglected by you guys!
i though we were the best friends?
i love to be with you guys when the class ended.
i love when the class ended, we headed to some where else to play or eat.
actually, I'm not going there to eat or what, i just love to be with you guys!
that's why i used to found a lot of excuses not to back to alpine!
at last, although you guys pretend in front of me,
but i feel that I've been neglected ... that's why I'm so emotional this few weeks~ ):
SOMEONE,
I'm been searching you around me for the long time!when are you going out to meet me here?
I'm lack of love, lack of blissful,lack of hug, lack of kiss and the most important
I'M LACK OF CARE !
AND,
i already figured out, where i look so upset nowadays!
that is because of friendship!
i do care what are you guys think about me!
i do care what are you guys did it to me!
i do care you guys meet out without inform me! (although it's none of my business)
i do really care our friendship!!
but why? ... speechless now ...
I've no idea what to describe my feeling now! I'm crying now actually!
BECAUSE I CARE OF YOU GUYS!
that's all i want to shout out here..
i knew it's lame,stupid and no used!
but, no any place to lend me to shout so, accept here T_T
lastly, i love you guys so much friends!
I wish i could shout out loud my thought and feeling with someone?here?seaside?
nobody could help me and I'm not even purposely go to seaside just to shout?!
so, the choice of me is just to write my feelings at here..
I'm not well-understand myself actually!
I'm not understand what happened on me seriously.
feel that I'm upset with some stuff, and yet i can't figure it out!
maybe is about friendship? or I'm in love with someone?
I'm going to be crazy!
FRIENDS,
maybe that's my character! I'm not well to express my love to you guys.
i feel that I've been neglected by you all. Maybe my self's character is too deep inside?
maybe I'm afraid i am doing something wrong in front of you all!
for example, I'm afraid to tell you guys if that things is not nice or whatever!
i didn't even have the same thought with you guys!
whenever i feel the things nice yet, you guys feel so ugly and not suitable!
i knew it's useless when i gave any suggestion to you guys, so i choose quite.
when I'm quite, you guys feel that I'm no used!
and maybe just because of my this character, i feel that i been neglected by you guys!
i though we were the best friends?
i love to be with you guys when the class ended.
i love when the class ended, we headed to some where else to play or eat.
actually, I'm not going there to eat or what, i just love to be with you guys!
that's why i used to found a lot of excuses not to back to alpine!
at last, although you guys pretend in front of me,
but i feel that I've been neglected ... that's why I'm so emotional this few weeks~ ):
SOMEONE,
I'm been searching you around me for the long time!when are you going out to meet me here?
I'm lack of love, lack of blissful,lack of hug, lack of kiss and the most important
I'M LACK OF CARE !
AND,
i already figured out, where i look so upset nowadays!
that is because of friendship!
i do care what are you guys think about me!
i do care what are you guys did it to me!
i do care you guys meet out without inform me! (although it's none of my business)
i do really care our friendship!!
but why? ... speechless now ...
I've no idea what to describe my feeling now! I'm crying now actually!
BECAUSE I CARE OF YOU GUYS!
that's all i want to shout out here..
i knew it's lame,stupid and no used!
but, no any place to lend me to shout so, accept here T_T
lastly, i love you guys so much friends!
Thursday, November 19, 2009
hey readers =)
i knew I'm abandoned my blog for more than 1 months?! sorry ya ;)
my Sem1 was finished and so means I'm holiday now!
this holidays were not giving me much fun or whatever! but just gave me a word B-O-R-E-D!
what a lifestyle I'm having now is BAD!
i was planned to find a job on Dec since i still haven't enjoy my holiday with my parents yet..
still need to shopping and have a great dinner with them at G Hotel.
can't wait for that time coming with dressing a pretty dress =)
*skip skip*
recently my dear brother was facing relationship's problem..
hope that's not a big deal for you dear.
i used to advice him and told whatever he need to do..and the next step are depends on you.
i knew you love her very much, but she has no feeling towards you already.
so, should you give up?!
I've no idea and sick with this kind of problem..
so, i didn't have the right to judge on you! just wish you luck dear xD
and yes!! my Malaysian Studies has passed!! which means I'm not going to touch SEJARAH anymore..wooohooooo~~~!!!!
congratulation to those who passed no matter TAFEA's students or business's =)
and i knew, some of my friends failed=(some of them going to resit on 5 DEC and someone choose to re-take the whole MS course!
but that's your choice guys..wish you all luck then.
no idea what's going to say the next..so better stop it here then.
no idea what's going to say the next..so better stop it here then.
bye guys.
xoxo
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
1 more week, I'll be turn to 18th! a bit excited yet nervous! xD
my ex-classmates say want to celebrate with me at 2/10!which means this Friday!
but still not yet plan where to go and invite who!
hope all will be fine=)
what will do while my real birthday day?
will i celebrate with the college's mate? family? or alone?
my mind still blank!='(
scare to be alone due to last year's situation!!
my college's mate called me go DREAM which at Auto-city!
some of them say go clubbing?! since i've turn 18th already what..hahaha^^
should i? or just staying at penang celebrate myself with sis??
my mind still blank too!='(
haizz...hope all will be fine for me xD!
my ex-classmates say want to celebrate with me at 2/10!which means this Friday!
but still not yet plan where to go and invite who!
hope all will be fine=)
what will do while my real birthday day?
will i celebrate with the college's mate? family? or alone?
my mind still blank!='(
scare to be alone due to last year's situation!!
my college's mate called me go DREAM which at Auto-city!
some of them say go clubbing?! since i've turn 18th already what..hahaha^^
should i? or just staying at penang celebrate myself with sis??
my mind still blank too!='(
haizz...hope all will be fine for me xD!
Saturday, September 19, 2009
since I'm so free now, and decided to update some picture to here! because my blog looks like dead already^^
all those pictures is recent me & my family!
an apologise to the readers because the pictures might be blur since I'm using cell phone to take all those pictures=)
please forgive ya.
location: gurney plaze's chilis restaurant
the blogger=)
the pretty sis
she is eating the so-called " bali yi mai" since she haven't took her breakfast!
i love this pic much!
she was acting silly again @.@
my daddy
big face i have!!!! damn it!
@.@
wondering why she likes to promote the chilli?!
the "tam jiak" hand!!haha~
all those pictures is recent me & my family!
an apologise to the readers because the pictures might be blur since I'm using cell phone to take all those pictures=)
please forgive ya.
location: gurney plaze's chilis restaurant
the blogger=)
the pretty sis
she is eating the so-called " bali yi mai" since she haven't took her breakfast!
i love this pic much!
she was acting silly again @.@
my daddy
big face i have!!!! damn it!
@.@
wondering why she likes to promote the chilli?!
the "tam jiak" hand!!haha~
Friday, September 18, 2009
AM I TOO EXPECT FOR SOMETHING?
As the title had been brought down the meaning of this post!
ohya..why i wrote this?
because my birthday is just around 19days!
and I'm too excited! but will i disappointed just because I'm expect too much?!
Every year,i wish i can have an unforgettable celebration!
but ends up,couldn't make it!
Every year,i wish i can get many wishes at 12:00a.m.!
but ends up,not much of my friends remember my birthday!
while last year,i wish i could celebrated my birthday with the love one!
but ends up,nothing surprise or even present send to me!
last year,was the most disappointed birthday year i ever had!
so that,i wish this year can celebrate my birthday with my friends or they can give me some surprise?!
I'm not even celebrated my birthday with my friends before!
so,I'm not well understand the feeling of the celebration!
aikss..i think i might DISAPPOINTED again this year..T_T
I KNOW I'M EXPECT TOO MUCH='(
ohya..why i wrote this?
because my birthday is just around 19days!
and I'm too excited! but will i disappointed just because I'm expect too much?!
Every year,i wish i can have an unforgettable celebration!
but ends up,couldn't make it!
Every year,i wish i can get many wishes at 12:00a.m.!
but ends up,not much of my friends remember my birthday!
while last year,i wish i could celebrated my birthday with the love one!
but ends up,nothing surprise or even present send to me!
last year,was the most disappointed birthday year i ever had!
so that,i wish this year can celebrate my birthday with my friends or they can give me some surprise?!
I'm not even celebrated my birthday with my friends before!
so,I'm not well understand the feeling of the celebration!
aikss..i think i might DISAPPOINTED again this year..T_T
I KNOW I'M EXPECT TOO MUCH='(
Friday, September 11, 2009
nowadays I'm busy with the assignment and assessment!this 2 really makes me terrible!
i still have 3 assignments, 2 assessments to catch up!
my college life damn tired,yet enjoyable!
i love bunch of us gather together to discuss the answer of assessment!
i love bunch of us hang out for lunch when we've the 2/3 hours break!
i love bunch of us went for movie at queensbay!
i love my classmates much although past few weeks have some crash with someone!
but its doesn't matter!!i really enjoy my college life much!!
the day before yesterday,bunch of us went for movie again!
me,Yee Min,Zoe,Jason,Eric,TC,Zhaoyang,Riley,Chermaine,Yingci and Qiqi Mak!!
bunch of us went for FINAL DESTINATION 4!
alright guys..i just want to let you'll know,i love to be with you'll so much=)
i still have 3 assignments, 2 assessments to catch up!
my college life damn tired,yet enjoyable!
i love bunch of us gather together to discuss the answer of assessment!
i love bunch of us hang out for lunch when we've the 2/3 hours break!
i love bunch of us went for movie at queensbay!
i love my classmates much although past few weeks have some crash with someone!
but its doesn't matter!!i really enjoy my college life much!!
the day before yesterday,bunch of us went for movie again!
me,Yee Min,Zoe,Jason,Eric,TC,Zhaoyang,Riley,Chermaine,Yingci and Qiqi Mak!!
bunch of us went for FINAL DESTINATION 4!
alright guys..i just want to let you'll know,i love to be with you'll so much=)
Friday, August 28, 2009
BAD FEELINGS THAT I NEVER HAD IT BEFORE!!
i know I've been neglected my blog!but i don't care!=)
nowadays many things happened on me!or i should say,many bad things happened towards me?!
quite "EMO" this few days as I've been hurt by someone who i love?not to say that!i like??aiiksss...whatever~!
feel alone this week just because my roommates holiday~ing right now!
and just because of leave me alone at apartment,i had think many things!
what a long time I've never cry like crazy but just because of YOU!
i truly cry until like...!!!really never cry until like that before!
really feel very tired to love someone who not loving you!!!imagine how hurt am i?!
many of my friends advised me not to cry just because of him!
they says that NOT WORTH!
while other friends says I SHOULD DESERVE A BETTER MAN?!
i think so!!really not worth to waste the time with the guy who not loving me and caring me!!
yet,their still lots of man waiting for me?!as my friend says that!!haha~~funny guy you are!
told you guys la...actually I'm acting nothing in front of you all just to let you all not to worry me!
but officially,I'm not!!I'M JUST ACTING!!but i knew you thought i'm OK,so you just leave it like that!
I'm not that strong as you thought!! I'm really sick with this such problem!!
so..DON'T EVER THINK THAT I'M STRONG PLEASE!
well,just to express my feeling and thought at here!
sorry if I been bored you guys!
feel free to click "X" for exit=) but i knew that's too late!haha~
because you've finish reading my blog=)
will be here soon..!
nowadays many things happened on me!or i should say,many bad things happened towards me?!
quite "EMO" this few days as I've been hurt by someone who i love?not to say that!i like??aiiksss...whatever~!
feel alone this week just because my roommates holiday~ing right now!
and just because of leave me alone at apartment,i had think many things!
what a long time I've never cry like crazy but just because of YOU!
i truly cry until like...!!!really never cry until like that before!
really feel very tired to love someone who not loving you!!!imagine how hurt am i?!
many of my friends advised me not to cry just because of him!
they says that NOT WORTH!
while other friends says I SHOULD DESERVE A BETTER MAN?!
i think so!!really not worth to waste the time with the guy who not loving me and caring me!!
yet,their still lots of man waiting for me?!as my friend says that!!haha~~funny guy you are!
told you guys la...actually I'm acting nothing in front of you all just to let you all not to worry me!
but officially,I'm not!!I'M JUST ACTING!!but i knew you thought i'm OK,so you just leave it like that!
I'm not that strong as you thought!! I'm really sick with this such problem!!
so..DON'T EVER THINK THAT I'M STRONG PLEASE!
well,just to express my feeling and thought at here!
sorry if I been bored you guys!
feel free to click "X" for exit=) but i knew that's too late!haha~
because you've finish reading my blog=)
will be here soon..!
Saturday, August 15, 2009
GIVE UP
I've managed to give up what should i give up!
i give up just because of the things that not belongs to me right now!
I'm not sure that am i correct for choosing give you up!!
but i think that give up is the better choice for me and you to live happily!
i used to think that be with you every single moment or even forever before choosing give up!
but end up,that's just a dream that i can say!!
so,i have to erase your name in my list now=)
wish that i can do that!!!
i give up just because of the things that not belongs to me right now!
I'm not sure that am i correct for choosing give you up!!
but i think that give up is the better choice for me and you to live happily!
i used to think that be with you every single moment or even forever before choosing give up!
but end up,that's just a dream that i can say!!
so,i have to erase your name in my list now=)
wish that i can do that!!!
UPSET!
As the title had tell - upset!
really quite upset because of the illness!!
felt like i've to segregate with all the people around!
why say so??
just because of just now was raining,and i wanted to help my mum to collect all the shirt!
but my mum says, don't go out yin!
followed up with my dad, don't go out ah yin!
really sad='(
please go away the headeche,sore throat,flu and cough!!
hate it so much!!!!!
really quite upset because of the illness!!
felt like i've to segregate with all the people around!
why say so??
just because of just now was raining,and i wanted to help my mum to collect all the shirt!
but my mum says, don't go out yin!
followed up with my dad, don't go out ah yin!
really sad='(
please go away the headeche,sore throat,flu and cough!!
hate it so much!!!!!
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